Miss you dad..

In this lately of morning..

Woke up with a thousand feelings..
Missing someone..
or two..

Nope..
not one..
not only two either..
miss all..
the things that used to be happenings..

Miss my buddys..
miss my church..
miss him..
miss my dad..

Really miss him..
dun know why..
it's just suddenly happens..

A lot of questions..
just come up to my mind..

What does it feels..
How does it feels..
having someone..
that take care of you..
really loved you..
try as hard as he can
to do the best
and not hurt you..

Smile and laugh..
with him..
talk and share many things..
'bout me..
'bout them..
cry on his shoulder..
got comfort..

Wondering..
How does it feels..
when the first time
he met my boy..
how does his feelings..
how he act and react..
what is his comment..
is it good or bad??
will he say "yes" or "no" ??
will he gave his word to him..??
will he agree??

How does it feels..
proud of having someone..
having dad..
walk with him..

How does it feels..
when first date..
my boy ask my dad..
to let me go with him..
what does he said??
will he angry??
or will he agree??

Miss all that things..
simple things..
that can't feel..
that can't imagine..
cuz it's only a dream..

Sometimes..
or often..
we didn't felt bless
of what we have..
always complain..

I know..
cuz I did it too..
still to learn many things in this world..

When he was there..
didn't respect him..
only think what I think is right..
only think what bad things he did..
only feel what I wanna feel..

Wish he be with me now..
wish that he can answer all my questions..
wish I can tell "Sorry dad..already disappointed you.."
wish I can hear what is his answer..

What does it feels..??
How does it feels..??

Miss u so dad..

Big and huge hug and kisses..